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if i changed the things i am
to be what you want
to be what you want
would you think of me?
and if i wasn't as bad
as people say i am
would i be
would i be
would i be a better man?
if i had a lot of cash
and bought the things
that you want
would you think
would you think
of me then?
and if i turned into dust
and my body turned to ash
would you think
would you think
all the things i think about you?
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i've heard you said
you hate yourself again
i've seen you cry
the sky is gray again
i havent slept at all
i havent slept
i read your name
on a bathroom stall
i saw myself
but i wasnt there at all
im leaving home
ill stay in bed today
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i know its late at night
and i hate myself again
but i need you to know
i'll find my way again
don't want to dream no more
the sky goes black it ends
and at night i can see
your ghost just running free
i don't want new friends again
i don't want to leave this bed
and if i have to die
i hope to see you then
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it's been five days since i last slept
my clock won't mind it if i stare
my bedroom's cold
i feel like death
it's been three months since i last spoke
to your mother on the phone
is she okay?
does she still call out your name?
it's been a year since i last saw
that little angel on my wall
he told me 'son you'll be okay
for your death will wash the pain'
i'm not myself and i don't care
the days go on
my pain won't end
it's been two days since i last ate
the sun won't rise
this night will stay
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monica
02:15
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i know a girl whose name is monica
i've seen the way she looks at me
and every night her eyes are on my screen
awaiting for some bad news tenderly
i know a girl whose name is monica
i've seen the bruises on her skin
and i know she takes some pills
before she goes to sleep
hoping she can wake up far away from here
i know a girl whose name is monica
she told me that i'll see her in my dreams
i know a girl whose name is monica
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i was walking through the frozen yard, i saw you stand
pictures of the summer when i broke my arm
i dont want to stay, just be far away from all this town
i can stay in bed, i can dream about the things i am
i could change myself, i could cut my hair to be what you want me to be
but then things started to get bad again, get bad again
i get lost inside myself when i think of you
everything is dull and everyone is unkind
the moment you can't change your mind
i will change it all, i will change my name
and if i hate myself, i will cut my hair and will stay in bed
because i will be what you want me to be
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7. |
virgin suicide
01:52
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you said you won't go out no more
i think i saw you through my room
you cursed the wind
you cursed the sun
across the street i watched you go
the dreadful stench just fills my lungs
the sky is dull, the wind won't blow
i see cecilia on the fence
she's a dreamer i can tell
the tress like lungs will keep on dying
the street downstairs won't see her flying
they are an empty room
they are a record in the trash
they are white dresses in a ball
they are the photos of my mind
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